After a pretty much perfect summer weekend packed with visiting friends, dining al fresco, a bocce tournament, cruising in our convertible (obviously!) and even a hair appointment for me, I’ve rather unexpectedly been finding myself alternating between bouts of inertia and wistfulness since Sunday night. 😔
Now before you go saying that – the inertia at least! – has something to do with all the hot weather we’ve been having lately, I swear to you it’s not!! I tolerate the heat better than almost everyone I know…and I’m convinced that it’s only the promise of exactly this kind of summer that gets me through the misery of winter year after year.
But our summer is different this time. Robin is taking night classes now (he’s hoping to make a career change after he lost his job in June) which means he’s not home with me most evenings…and that means there aren’t as many opportunities for impromptu sunset drives or evenings together on our terrace. And while we’re not at the point of having to go “without” – not yet, anyway! – we are watching our budget carefully, which naturally puts a damper on some of the spontaneous spending we might otherwise indulge in.
I’m constantly thinking of the future, too. It’s so true that “worry” is the most pointless of emotions – in the end, what will be will be. And it’s not really worry that I’m feeling anyways; I have absolutely no doubt that my hubby will find another job. But we humans, as a rule, don’t like change very much…and our lifestyle will change (quite a bit, probably) when Robin no longer works from home.
Of course change can be a good thing…and I need to keep trying to focus on that. In fact, it’s often only after we’ve stepped – or been pushed! – out of our comfort zones that some of life’s very best opportunities suddenly present themselves. So nothing to do but to tough it out; ideally in a “biker babe” outfit like today’s striped skinny jeans, sequinned t-shirt, booties, and baker boy cap!! 😎